Just realized

     Hey everyone :) i keep checking the stats on my blog, and I'm surprised on how many people i don't even know are reading it (that includes you 7 people from USA) :).
  
     I was walking to school before my exam this morning and i realized i have posted two blogs and i still haven't really said why i want to go back to Ukraine, for how long, or any information on those lines what so ever LOL

     Well to understand on why i want to go back theres two big parts to it. You need to understand a little of my past, and you need to understand what these kids are going through and how awesome they are about it.

     I didn't grow up in the best home, i was never hit, almost never yelled at(unless i did something stupid, i was a brat) but right off the bat for me things were messed up. I am a product of rape, theres not much else about it but at the age of 16 my mom was raped and I'm here today because of it. My mom has never tried to get rid of my because of it. Other then the first 6 months or so of her pregnancy, she got drunk A LOT, threw herself down stairs, and other "home remades" of dealing with a pregnancy.
    
     So i grew up with out knowing a Father (other than God, but even that was a little shaky for the first bit of my life). I never grew up with a lot of money either, when i was in grade 2 or 3, we moved across Canada to Alberta and I'm pretty sure dirt was worth more than what we had. We started out in a few womans shelters until my mom could get a job, and find a place to live (remember by this time she is now a single mother at the age of 21 with 2 kids). so we moved to Millwoods Alberta, my mom was working two jobs and we had next to nothing.

     I really didn't help, even though by the age of 6 or 7 i was able to cook a full meal and clean, i started to get into trouble. i got into setting fires, and stealing, and tricking people to give me stuff (i was a cute kid back then, it was a lot easier for me). I was an angry child, and i didn't know who to be angery at because it wasn't anyones fault. so i stole, set fires and so on.

     when i was 8 or 9, we met who i call my dad (or daddy-o when i want something) He was probably the first good thing i could count on in my life, and things got better (but not with out A LOT of work). I'm still not perfect, im far from it. and i can go into much more detail on how messed up my life was and is, but this is what you need to know for now.

     The kids i want to work with in Ukraine are coming from similar backgrounds, their parents are out of the picture or don't care, they have next to nothing, and all they want is something sturdy to count on. When i was in Ukraine for the first time, i saw these kids who have maybe one or two toys that they can call their own, and are living in an orphanage or a rehab center. But the thing is, with these kids they only want one thing. they want to be "normal", get good grades in school, get a good job, and grow up and have a good life and family. In Canada we all have that chance (you can debate it if you want, but I'm standing by it), and if you work hard you can get a good job, have a good family and a good life. I found in Ukraine, people go to school, and its a struggle every step of the way. when they get a job, its a struggle to save money and stay ahead. When they have a family its a struggle to keep it together, because of so many "out side forces".

     I found that i can relate to these kids, because i have struggled through school, i have struggled to have a good family and life, and i have seen people struggle to get a good job. To them, i came through everything they have to, to me they are superheros.


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